Tuesday, January 22, 2013
Bidding her farewell
We had been regulars at the hospital lately, as my dear grandma fought for her life. We bade her farewell as she passed this Sunday prior, and though there is an indescribable sorrow amongst her children and grandchildren, I thank the Lord who was gracious to give her 88 years on this earth. As I look at the most recent picture I have with her above circa 2008, I am reminded of how she sacrificially cared for my grandpa, her eight children, and twenty grandchildren throughout her life. We could all confirm that she was the glue that melded everyone together, especially as she modeled faithfulness and love in her 70 year marriage with my grandpa. She heard the gospel three times in her last days, and though I wrestle with not absolutely knowing if her heart had truly been captured by the gospel, I am comforted by the truth that it is not up to us, but up to God who changes hearts. The husband and I read this verse this weekend past, which granted us great comfort for "it depends not on human will or exertion, but on God, who has mercy." I miss and love her tremendously, but I know God is sovereign and wise in working out all things for good, and I am thankful for the husband and my dear church family who've come alongside us with their love and prayers.