Wednesday, January 9, 2019

Letters to Verity: 1 month


My dear Verity Heart,

This has been the fastest whirlwind of a month because you spent your first 11 days of life in the NICU and your first weeks home fell amid Christmas and New Year gatherings. However, you've taken center stage of our affections since you've been born. I'm treasuring up these moments with you in my heart, because I know they'll go by so quickly. May these monthly letters for the first year of your life serve as a record of not only your milestones, but also as tangible evidence of how loved you are.

Oh, my littlest baby, I love you so. The day of your birth may have caught me by surprise, but your life is cherished beyond articulation. You are the sweetest gift. Because you had to spend time in the NICU, I do not take your time home with us for granted. I'm snuggling you as much as possible, which you love and express with content newborn grunts. You also grunt happily when I rub your back as you nurse with your legs sticking straight out, which is a welcome opportunity for me to tickle the soles of your teeny feet. You nurse on average every three hours, though during your third week of life, you went through a growth spurt and nursed a bit more often at night. Your lips randomly curl into an endearing smile while eating, which is the cutest. You happily take a bottle once a day, which is so helpful in our family's daily rhythm.

If you don't like something, you scream to let us know. You have a high-pitched cry and a nice set of lungs. In addition to crying when you're hungry, you also don't like having a dirty diaper or boogers. You're also not sure about baths at times. Thankfully, you're quickly comforted when we hold you, and sometimes with a pacifier.

When it comes to sleep, you prefer to sleep on your back with your face to the left, usually with your mouth slightly open and your hands up by your face. However, you also enjoy being swaddled, the first of our babies to do so. You'll sleep in the Moses basket, lounger, or cradle swaddled. During your growth spurt, you needed extra cuddles at night, which I haven't minded because I already anticipate the impending grief that comes with knowing you're our last baby. Therefore, I'm soaking up all the cuddles, even if it comes at the price of sleep.

Time goes too quickly, for within a month, you've gained a pound. You currently weigh 6 lbs and measure 18 3/4 inches long. You wore premie diapers and clothing for the first 3 weeks of life, graduating to newborn diapers and clothing at 4 weeks. You were swimming in newborn clothing during the first few weeks and it boggles my mind that you're filling into them now. Still, I love your littleness - your teeny hands and feet, your froggy legs, your wide-mouthed yawns, your silky soft head full of hair, and your newborn sleepiness.

Your parents and siblings adore you so. You are the most asked for person in our family these days. Your big sisters and brother run to hug you and smother you with kisses every chance they get. I shall cherish watching you grow, my littlest babe. I can't wait to see the person our gracious God has created you to be.  May you grow knowing His character and His ways, that you are incomparably loved in Christ Jesus our Lord.


Love you so,
Mama

P.S. Verity at 0 months and her birth story.

Tuesday, January 8, 2019

First four weeks with four kids


























Because our first four weeks with four kids fell among the holidays, the days melted together into an indistinguishable blur. I'm certain attempting to ensure four kids ages five and under survive while sleep deprived has something to do with it too. But it's been incomparably sweet to witness our family transition alongside Alex. The three older kids are in love with their baby sister. Valor is working on pronouncing Verity's name. He started off with "Vetaly." Then it became "Veh-ih-tee." Now it's "baby Vetty." Serene greets the baby with "Aw-baby-Verity-you're-so-adorable!" Reverie squeals "Baby!" with delight as she engulfs her with a head hug.

The chilly January days prompt us to stay in. The big kids enjoy their Christmas gifts all day long, notably geography puzzles, new books, magnetic tiles, train tracks, and new art supplies. All while we are plunged into the depths of newborn life, which causes us to seek the Lord for mercy and grace. So thankful for Alex who is an amazing teammate, husband, and father. Thankful to run this race towards Jesus with him as we're entrusted to disciple these four precious souls for the time being.

Saturday, December 29, 2018

Hope forevermore in Christmas

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We had a simple Christmas this year, which we cherished. We commenced Christmas morning singing a hymn and reading the tale of Christ's birth from Matthew before opening gifts. We Facetimed my parents, my brother, and my mother-in-law when the kids opened gifts from them as they couldn't be there with us. Alex's dad and brother stopped by with dim sum for brunch and we just enjoyed a slow, cozy day celebrating Christ's birth. We are thankful for the sweet gift of Verity to our family in time for Christmas this year, but also heartbroken for life unexpectedly lost in my extended family. While this season brings a mixture of joy and sorrow, praise God for sending Jesus to enter into broken humanity so that we'd have hope forevermore. Grateful we can draw near to Him who empathizes with our sorrows and grants eternal comfort.